I don’t enjoy making people mad, because I’m a nobody and not as tough as I used to be, neither physically nor mentally. That worries me. I need help.

I want my health and strength back so that I can be a good role model for others, not just another statistic. Whoever said “dead men tell no tales” was right.

I’m tired of being in pain and crying my eyes out all night. That just gives the fools around me more reason to be smug and to feel better about themselves.

I wish they’d just leave me alone, because they can’t and won’t help me. What l need comes from all that’s good in the universe, from the iSoul itself.

Anyone who disagrees with me about that should be ashamed. They are the ones who should be worried, not me. How long will this madness go on?